Phone consultation

Our free phone consultation with the new doctor, let's call him Dr C, was rescheduled and took place today. He asked few questions, some of which I have already answered in their clinic questionnaire. He seems to think that the best way to go would be an aggressive stimulation IVF with immunology prep beforehand. He does not do natural IVF since he doesn't think the efforts required are justifiable with too low success rate.
He suggested that I cut out dairy (yogurt is thankfully okay), gluten (and I'd just had pasta for lunch), and alcohol completely (and he calls it a life). He also recommends to up the daily dose of CoQ10, Vitamin D, and to add Omega-3 and prenatals (I can't even describe how much I hate taking prenatals while not being pregnant). He also wants me to do blood tests for NK cells, cytokines and antiphosphilipid panel. He does not believe that my husband needs to do a Sperm Chromatine Structure Assay for his low (2%) morphology, as it was recommended by my second Dr (let's call him Dr J). He was quite adamant on this issue (but again, so was Dr J).
So, we're off for the tests on Monday. Depending on the results, we'll see whether we need IVF or we could treat immune issues and try naturally. Frankly, cards are stacked against us on all counts. We're dealing with female issues, male issues, immune issues, and we would probably have no money for IVF. And even if we had, having this endometrioma as an after-effect of Femara, I don't know if I want to risk anything like this happening again.

Breathe

Today was one of those days... everything was seemingly fine, but I had to remind myself to breathe. Breathe, breathe, just try to get through it. No miracles, just you and your body. Please breathe.
Other random stuff:
1. Somewhere on the net there was a discussion of how do women announce their pregnancies, and it just broke my heart again. Just imagine the innocence of all these people, who assume their two lines would eventually lead to an actual baby. I so wish I still had it.
2. Another friend, whom I haven't seen in a loooong time, turned out to be expecting, due in a month. I must be developing a sixth sense where the pregnancies are concerned: I've seen her husband on a party in the beginning of October, and when I asked about her, he said that she was home sick. His smirk was somewhat incongruous, so I suspected she was not sick as in sick, but sick as in morning sickness sick. And it turns out I was right. Oh well.
3. We are a backup childcare support for another friend in case she has to have her baby earlier. The irony of it.
4. I am just not good in waiting. Now I wait until I recover from surgery completely, get my period, and start peeing on sticks and have baby-dance. Just doing something, anything, to get another chance.
5. I emailed the Dr. of a "crappy uterus" theory to update him on the surgery results. I asked him if any changes in my supplement protocol are in order. He never emailed me back. I realize he is busy but I cannot help but think he is just not interested, not having received any support for his original theory. And this is so disappointing - two of my friends recommended him as the best doctor they'd ever had. Guess I wasn't so lucky. Again.
Meanwhile, I am slowly reintroducing some of the supplements back again. However, I am not that keen anymore. Yesterday, I took konjak root (fiber), and now I finally know which one of my medications gave me the horrible gassiness all the way. This is one supplement I do not really want to take anymore.
I also Googled "supplements to improve egg quality". Some of these sound downright nasty, so I have to think which ones I am willing to tolerate, especially since there is no medical professional to guide me through the process.